Feeling deflated and unmotivated Things just don't seem to ..

Feeling deflated and unmotivated Things just don't seem to go my way recently. Things have been slow on all fronts. My work, my business, my OF and even my swinging life. IG - I never really did much there and I'm not too upset that it's never picking up, but seeing the follower number go down does suck a bit. Reddit - Last year I had so much love from Reddit which motivated me to post content. Then things took a turn and I had a fraction of the attention. Which gradually made me want to post less and less content. Now I'm so disheartened by the lack of support that I'm rarely posting anything. Twitter - has been my main platform almost from the beginning. I enjoy my interactions on the platform but it's slowly becoming disheartening that my growth has come almost to a standstill. Of course I could network a lot more, I could do X,Y and Z. But it's a little disheartening that without playing the social media game my growth has come to a halt. OF - Lately it's been quality over quantity. I get many people that pass through and only stay for 1 month. But some of my most loyal fans have been amazing. My subscriber count has officially dropped by 40% from it's highest point. But the money I've earned has not dropped at all. As anxiety inducing as the fall is, I've also learned that more people isn't always better. I have some followers that are amazing and will make it their mission to keep me motivated and happy. Hotwife content creation - I chose a date and 2 different guys to potentially film with. 1st was a total time waster and then the 2nd also was a no-go as he was busy on the date. I decided to not pursue anyone else as I already gave my answer to everyone else and it would have been too last minute. I don't know when if ever I'll create more content with somebody new. Swinging life - The canceled content creation gave me a good opportunity to visit a private club, which was great. It was a good visit and I picked up some momentum. I tried to find guys on fab as well but I either encountered time wasters locally or just guys I didn't click with. Last weekend I visited a private club to keep the naughty momentum going. And it went nowhere, lots of sexy people there but almost nobody played with others, all couples played with themselves and I had ZERO interest. Nobody approached me, nobody seemed to be interested to talk to me. If I didn't feel old and unwanted before, I do now. I just needed to vent. All things considered, I'm still doing great. I'm creating content regularly and I enjoy showing it to the people that want to see it. Even though my following isn't growing as fast as I'd like, it is loyal and I appreciate every follower on every platform. I'm sorry for sounding whiney, I just needed to vent. At the end of the day, I could do more, I just need to find the motivation within me. Thank you for getting my PPVs, for tipping me, for buying me coffee and even for putting the outfits on me that I create content with. Without you there is no Sarah on onlyfans. You mean the world to me, the fact that my slow decline isn’t reflected in my monthly numbers here is heartwarming. Thank you ❤️