Hey cuties... I've been getting requests that you guys would be interested in seeing my writing! I'm actually working on a bigger writing project right now, so maybe I can post snippets for y'all so you can tell me what you think :3
Some will be sexy and fun, this is a more serious piece on selfies! It was inspired by that annoying NYT article about selfies published earlier today. <3
I’ve been taking self portraits for a long time now. I remember being maybe three or four, and watching my mother take photos using a disposable camera. I asked to use it. I took a photo of the sky, which I thought was very beautiful.
“Don’t waste the film,” my mother scolded me.
I loved taking photos. There was something so thrilling about being able to capture an image. I was so in love with being alive, I wanted to grab all of it and record it. I loved the thrill of waiting for the prints to come back from the lab. I would hold the negatives up to the light as my father explained to me how the chemical reactions allowed us to capture the light of a particular moment.
Of course, I occasionally turned the camera back on myself. I had no tripod, no fancy camera with a timer, and I was too small to figure any of that out anyway. I took photos of my face. I was too short to see myself in the bathroom mirror, soone of the only ways I could look at myself was through photos. Of course, the first few “selfies” (are they selfies if they’re handheld, only with a film camera?) looked strange, my face distorted by the close range.
When I was in high school, my parents gifted me a digital camera. I was incredibly excited. How cool to be able to iterate on photos so quickly, to be able to see how they came out. I would plug the camera into my computer, downloading all the photos, meticulously archiving them in carefully sorted folders. I took photos of my dog, my friends, my family, of plants I liked. I took self portraits obsessively.
At that point, I had a laptop with a webcam as well. I received a phone with a camera as well. I used every camera I had to take photos of myself. I would hold out my hand, or use a tripod and a timer. I posted everything on social media. In the beginning, when I was posting them, I don’t even think there was a word for “selfie.” At the time, I believe the term was “GPOY” - gratuitous picture of yourself. And the “gratuitous” part was really felt. I would pretend to be ironic, posting them, pretending I was a vain girl obsessed with my image. But of course, I knew by posting them, I was still performing the act of being a vain girl. The self deprecation was meant as a shield against criticism. Girls were taught early that being too obsessed with our appearance was a grievous sin.
I was in an intensive arts program in high school, so constant self portraits didn’t particularly disturb anyone I knew IRL. To be honest, I’m not really use anyone cared, besides guys at school who thought I was hot. As I started reading more art theory, I started writing a long paper about women, vanity, self portraits, and social media.
After I finished my paper, and started talking more about this stuff on social media, I fell in with a group of much older women artists. It was exciting, hanging out with a bunch of cool girls who had just finished their MFAs and were starting to be taken more seriously by the art world.
I went to Sarah Lawrence after I graduated, in part so that I could stay close to the city and continue participating in this exciting new movement. The word for “selfie” was starting to be used more. The Kardashians were gaining in popularity. People were skewering selfies in op-eds, claiming it was foolish teenage girls being vain and self obsessed. Selfies were destroying the youth, or they were too sexual, or they were preventing people from reading, whatever. I was infuriated.
In 2013, I released a piece I was very excited about, something exploring self portraits, narcissism, and women. That year, “selfie” was Oxford Dictionary’s word of the year. The New York Times started writing about selfies as a serious art form. It was cool to see people finally take selfies more seriously… just annoying that they still were not acknowledging the hard work all we girls had put into making selfies a serious art form.
Now these selfies are how I earn my living. While many people still don’t value sex workers and the work we do, I think sites like OnlyFans allow us to practice our art and make money. While porn piracy is still unfortunately common, I think people are more comfortable than ever compensating us for all the hard work we do to bring some cutie sexy smut into the world!
2020-04-24 15:51:29 +0000 UTC
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2020-04-24 02:08:56 +0000 UTC
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Here's a bottomless theme post for T. Hope you like it T!! <3
2020-04-23 13:54:04 +0000 UTC
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2020-04-23 01:34:47 +0000 UTC
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Hey everyone! A request was to have my comic available here as well - I pay the artists out from this, so I've sent it as a paid message for anyone currently subscribed. This comic arc, TEAse, co-stars Dominatrix Iris with art by Jen Hickman. It includes gentle femdom, locked chastity, feminization, bondage, tease and denial, a strap, two on one, and the taking of more than one kind of virginity!
Let me know if you don't see it! I hope you like it!
2020-04-22 13:15:55 +0000 UTC
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Hey cuties! love you all! Doing my best to keep up with your messages, just did a big batch! If you haven't gotten a response from me in a little bit, feel free to poke me again. You know how OF can be sometimes with notifications!
Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!!! Tell me stories if anything fun happened! hehe
2020-04-21 05:28:49 +0000 UTC
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Here's a full film photoshoot from back in San Francisco! Just playing with a silk scarf in the windowlight 💕
2020-04-20 21:29:58 +0000 UTC
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A couple of you were curious about my comic pics! These ones are a bit old, mostly the marvel stuff! Now that I'm in a lil NYC apartment, most of my books are pooled with a few other people's books at a friend's apartment we kind of use as a community space! (They do a weekly magic the gathering club there for sex workers and queer folks, video game events and stuff like that!)
I'm not really going out in NYC right now, with everything going on, so I won't be able to take pics there for a bit, but I think you guys will be really impressed - between the few of us I think we have every Marvel Omnibus now! And most of the DC ones.. not like I've read all of them but it's pretty cool hehe
2020-04-19 20:53:13 +0000 UTC
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Got this idea from C. - a pubes over pants post! Or maybe more general... peekapubes? Hope you don't mind a couple upskirt pics hehe
2020-04-19 08:34:13 +0000 UTC
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J. and K. were interested in more upskirt pics! Remember those polaroids I posted, well, I'm not Just Kiddin when I say I found some digital shots from the same day! I think you'll like these!
2020-04-17 07:15:02 +0000 UTC
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Hey cuties, how's your day goin?
2020-04-16 06:44:20 +0000 UTC
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M. asked for bushy pics. I'm always showin' that bush though so I thought I might make it a little more fun with some panty play. How do you like this, M? hehe
2020-04-15 18:29:30 +0000 UTC
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2020-04-15 06:11:28 +0000 UTC
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D'ya like bananas?
2020-04-14 05:37:08 +0000 UTC
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hey
2020-04-13 02:58:10 +0000 UTC
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Here's a foot theme post for C. Enjoy the toesies!!
2020-04-12 01:52:59 +0000 UTC
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What do you mean they're staring?
2020-04-11 13:37:48 +0000 UTC
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T. requested closet/dressing room pics! Why not! Here's a set I found from my old closet - I loved that pink color hehe. not as easy to have a big closet in a city like NY!
2020-04-09 12:21:44 +0000 UTC
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sum butt
2020-04-09 00:07:01 +0000 UTC
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D.J. and S. (and I think maybe some others of you!) wanted to see some shower pics!
I thought about this digital set from years back - I'm not sure many of you have seen this one! I love how the water is caught in motion, I think it looks pretty cool.. and sexy hehe
Hope you enjoy this shower post! And thank you for all your sweet words in the messages - those of you who haven't said hi yet, don't be shy! I love the chance to check in with all my fans and hear what they like - and also just about your lives! I feel like I learn so much, especially right now, with your stories from all over the world. Thank you for sharing them with me! Anyway, haha, enjoy me WET!
2020-04-08 15:27:59 +0000 UTC
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2020-04-08 02:56:22 +0000 UTC
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Aha, so the poll results are in and the results are.... intriguing!
Most of you amiable to the idea and it seems those interested in paying to watch me shave narrowly won over the others! I'll have to see about making that possible for you hehe
But rest assured if/when I do shave, I'll make sure to have enough hairy content on hand that I can post some every day until it regrows! 😜
I understand you long time hairy fans are a lot of my core supporters! And I love you too! hehe
Lemme think about the funnest way to do this and feel free to drop your wild ideas - no guarantees I'll pick up on them but they're fun to read! <3
2020-04-07 18:51:48 +0000 UTC
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Heading to bed, I think having answered almost all my messages and read through your recent comments. Thank you for always being so sweet!!! It really means a lot to me that I get such pleasant messages and comments from you guys 💕💕💕💕
2020-04-07 06:37:09 +0000 UTC
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I looked it up on my phone and I've got some little digital pictures that we must have taken at the same time as the film I just posted! Thought you guys might appreciate this little bonus, it's fun to compare them to the film pictures!
2020-04-06 08:13:01 +0000 UTC
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Here's a full film photoshoot from Japan, when I was staying in Kyoto a little while back!
2020-04-05 19:47:20 +0000 UTC
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2020-04-05 07:33:08 +0000 UTC
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Are you coming up?
2020-04-04 19:20:18 +0000 UTC
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Sorry I'm a little behind on messages! It's been a little rough here in NYC this week, I admit.
I'm working on your guided meditation video! Hope you're all keeping well! Sending you my love!
2020-04-04 06:53:50 +0000 UTC
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Here's one for those who requested being able to see my pubes through panties hehe
and a bonus butt shot ;)
2020-04-03 19:27:57 +0000 UTC
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I've had more than a couple requests for a pussy close up post! like it? hehe
2020-04-02 06:26:33 +0000 UTC
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